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𝐆𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐕𝐄 ❁ ([personal profile] stonethrow) wrote2025-12-06 07:12 pm

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𝓶𝓪𝔂𝓫𝓮, 𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓻 𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓻𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓯𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓬𝓲𝓻𝓬𝓾𝓶𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼—
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-08 04:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ Sciel and Lune were Gommaged so recently that reforming their Chroma proves to be trivial for Maelle, given a little bit of reassurance and encouragement. Gustave, though— he's been dead for much longer. The Canvas remembers him less, and so does Maelle. Honestly, Verso is a little relieved that it looks like she won't be able to bring him back, but then he sees the wetness form in her eyes.

He spends the better part of the next hour unwillingly walking her through the process of Painting Gustave again. It's a painstaking exercise. She tries and fails several times, too weak still to be able to will the Canvas into her desired image. When she's just about to give up, he tells her to try one more time, and he spares a little bit of his Chroma, too, just to fill in the gaps.

Then she's really crying, because the person she loves most in the world is standing in front of her, whole and alive. Verso mumbles something about giving them time alone and absconds. He can't bear to look at Gustave, feels like his throat is closing up at the sound of his voice behind him as he stalks off. It works out; Gustave's presence provides a welcome distraction from the angry shouting that Lune had been doing, and the group—sans Verso—all spend their time around the campfire filling Gustave in on every (every) little detail of what he's missed. While they laugh and cry over the fire each night, Verso spends his time as far away from camp as he can manage. When Maelle questions it, he tells her that he just doesn't feel well.

It's a lie the first evening, but becomes more true the second, and even more so the third. He hasn't been ill in decades, not since he stopped eating so many mysterious mushrooms. First, he considers that the illness has a psychogenic cause, that it's a physical manifestation of stress at seeing someone whose death he's responsible for spring back to life. Then, he begins to wonder if it's the Chroma. Maybe in allowing Maelle to use it for Gustave, he's given away some important, intrinsic part of himself.

The fourth day has been a miserable day of travel; he's stayed in the back, mostly, feverish and barely trudging along. He's not sure what he's looking for as he plods after Gustave, leaned against a tree in the distance, the journal Maelle kept updated in hand. They haven't spoken once, save for maybe a few awkward excusez-mois, and he'd wanted to keep it that way— but it feels now as if there's some part of him lost to Gustave, and he needs to find out if that's really true, if there's a way for him to get it back somehow. He must still be ten, fifteen feet away as he slogs toward him, feet feeling incredibly heavy.
]

Hey—

[ He throws up. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-08 07:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's winter break from the Conservatory, so Verso lugs his suitcase from his little apartment above the patisserie all the way back to the Dessendre estate, loaded with enough clothing and toiletries to last him through the holidays, although admittedly he doesn't need it. Maman always keeps his room exactly as it was when he moved out, wardrobe filled with clothes and toothpaste on the bathroom counter. The favoritism is nauseating, Clea once said.

It's that suitcase making noise as it clatters to the floor in the living room that alerts the dogs; they come running as they always do, yipping in excitement as Monoco jumps up to put his front paws on Verso's legs, Noco nipping at his ankles. He's missed them terribly—the dogs have always felt like his, not the family's. He's the one who (until very recently) fed them, walked them, played with them.
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I brought you something.

[ Crouching to lay open the suitcase, he fishes through for a little leather ball, embossed with a floral pattern the dogs won't be able to appreciate at all. He stands, arm reared back to toss the ball. ]

Fetch, [ he says, throwing it down the hall at the exact moment Gustave rounds the corner. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-08 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Putain, [ is all he says at first, nauseated and embarrassed. The nausea, at least, subsides quickly enough; having someone's hand on his shoulder must be steadying, because the retching stops a moment after. He breathes in—not too deeply, considering he just upchucked onto the grass—and out, then eyes the little flask.

Voice a little scratchy from the aggressive vomiting he just did, he rasps,
] I was hoping it was wine.

[ Ha, ha. But also actually.

Verso takes the offered water if only to wash away the bad breath, terminally aware of the way other people are experiencing him. The water helps, too, he thinks; he still feels fatigued and vaguely awful, but it feels like maybe his fever has broken.
]

...Hi.

[ Hell, this is humiliating. Not only has he had to watch Maelle coo over Gustave for the past four days, but now he's practically thrown up on his shoes. ]

Sorry, I— [ He wipes his mouth. ] Haven't been... feeling well.
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-09 12:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ Verso's allowed to break every family rule, but he guesses Gustave doesn't know that yet.

Maelle's tutor—he turns the words around in his head. They still sound a little foreign. Alicia had announced that she'd like to go by Maelle at the beginning of this year, and it still takes a little getting used to, although he tries his best to remember. She'd suffered such bullying and exclusion at the academy the previous year, the thing that drove her to schooling at home instead; he imagines the change of name is an attempt to put it all behind her.
]

You mean the tutor that Maelle can't stop talking about.

[ The comment is light, nonchalant, but if Gustave is particularly observant he might be able to pick up on a hint of blink-and-you'll-miss-it jealousy. Sometimes I'm afraid you're forgetting about me entirely, Verso once wrote in one of his letters to Maelle, before scratching it out and crumpling it up. He'd instead sent Sounds like you're having a great time!

He shakes Gustave's hand, firm and practiced.
]

My parents didn't, uh, mention you'd be here.

[ They'd said they'd be out for an art exhibition, or something of that like. He'd expected Gustave would be gone, too. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-09 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ Another blink-and-Gustave-definitely-missed-it microexpression, his eyebrows rising for just a moment. Oh. It's an unexpected response. They've just met, and already Gustave is trying to excuse himself. It makes sense, of course. Gustave is a live-in tutor, but he's still a tutor. It's just a job. In fact, he was probably looking forward to having some peace and quiet before Verso showed up.

It's fine. Not everyone has to like Verso. (Yes, they do.)

—But then again, he'd said bother. Like maybe he thinks this is an imposition on Verso, rather than the other way around. Hm. He crouches down to close up his suitcase again.
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Let me guess, [ he says, chewing it over, ] you've become familiar with Clea.

[ And now he assumes that Verso will act the same undoubtedly unfriendly way that she has. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-09 03:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ With the suitcase closed, he stands and picks it up, lugging it along as he gestures for Gustave to follow him down the hall and toward his room where he can drop it off. Monoco and Noco, having lost interest in the ball, clamber around underfoot. He gingerly steps over Noco. ]

She hasn't mentioned me?

[ That's...

Fine, he tells himself. It doesn't matter. She's getting older, to that age where little sisters don't fawn over their big brothers as much as they used to. Besides, she's been under a lot of stress from their parents, Maman especially. It's fine.

He shrugs noncommittally and says, like it doesn't hurt a little to hear,
] Guess there isn't much to say. I've been away at the Conservatory.
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-10 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ Verso drags his suitcase a little further down the hall, turning away from Gustave to hide the pleased smile on his face. Every day. He'd thought for certain that Maelle didn't need him anymore, that she was being kept busy with someone else. Someone who she'd said knew everything. Someone whose mechanical arm she'd raved about. Someone who'd rescued a mouse in the garden from being eaten by the dogs, if her stories are true. Maelle had seemed to find that terribly heroic. ]

Yes, she's very stern.

[ Ha, ha. Maelle is horribly mild-mannered unless she likes you, and then suddenly she's a little monster who can't stop bullying. Fortunately for her, the bullying is adorable.

He opens the door to his bedroom and tosses his suitcase in, although he stays in the hall, leaning his shoulder against the doorframe. The room inside is obviously exorbitantly large. No person needs that much space, but clearly the Dessendres disagree.
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You're a researcher, then? [ ... ] I have to admit, I pictured you with a bit more grey in your hair.

[ He'd pictured a stuffy old academic, actually. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-11 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Gustave will feel, suddenly, a sharp flicker of— inexplicable irritation, followed immediately by guilt. It's not fair to be annoyed by how kind Gustave is being to him, and he knows this, but he feels it regardless. Can't you be just a little bit worse? he wants to shout, but he doesn't, because... well, that would be insane, and also because his throat is still a bit raw from the violent retching. ]

No, it's okay.

[ Well, it's not 'okay', but he is slowly starting to feel less ill the longer he sits here, and he's beginning to wonder if maybe he really did just make the whole sickness up in his head. Maybe— maybe it really is psychosomatic, and all he needed to do was confront the person who's been consuming his every thought head on.

Horrifying. Guilt gives way to embarrassment.
]

Sorry, uh—

[ He stumbles over his words, uncertain what to say. ]

I think I'm fine now. [ Abruptly, and without cause. He hopes dearly that Gustave doesn't notice how quickly his illness went away, how obvious it is that it's all just psychological. ] I was just coming to ask if...

[ A pause. He's not sure now. He cants his head toward the journal. Gustave's, ostensibly, although Maelle has been the one keeping it updated since his death. ]

If you got everything you needed from Maelle's journal entries.
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-13 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Well, that was abrupt. Verso has a little vertigo from how fast Gustave shifted the topic away from himself. Modest, he supposes. Verso wouldn't really know what that's like; his own accomplishments have always been a frequent topic. If he were in Gustave's shoes, he would have just taken that opportunity to brag about his big brain and innovative research studies.

But not everyone lacks such humility, apparently.
]

Long enough that I'll be staying here until class starts up again.

[ The manor is away from the city proper, where there's space for sprawling acres of greenery. It would be possible to go back and forth from here to the Conservatory, but it would be a real pain. Besides, he'd welcomed the opportunity to strike out on his own. Life with the Dessendres can be a tad... suffocating. ]

—Hey. [ Just as abrupt as Gustave's subject change. ] You're an engineer, aren't you? Mechanical?

[ Alicia—Maelle—had mentioned. Gushed about some wind-up toy he'd made for her. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-14 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ Cool. He has no fucking idea what a Cartesian engineer is. But it sounds close enough! Verso opens his door again, gesturing for Gustave to follow him inside. There's something in here he'd like to show Gustave, or more accurately, something he'd like to ask him about. ]

Viens ici.

[ Inside, the room is large but surprisingly empty; it's nice, but devoid of any real personality until the side room that Verso leads him into. This room houses his piano, his mostly unused paints, a very expensive-looking model train set up on a table. ]

What sort of prototype does a Cartesian engineer make?
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-14 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ —Oh??? Verso raises an eyebrow, surprised for a moment at the instant identification. Maybe he shouldn't be. Maybe all Cartesian engineers know this stuff. His mouth twitches all the same. ]

Oh, yeah, go ahead.

[ He gestures toward the little train, a perfect little 1:1 replication of the real thing, all the way down to the tiniest details. It had been a gift, a few Christmases back. A grown-up model for the adult who's still, despite everything, into trains. ]

That's actually why I brought you in here.

[ Not just for the hell of it, shockingly. ]

There's a little motor on the back. It's supposed to move down the tracks by itself, but it's stopped working. I was hoping you could take a look.

[ Already putting him to work. ]
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[personal profile] recreatable 2025-12-15 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh! He hadn't expected quite so much enthusiasm. Sure, Gustave is an engineer, but he'd thought maybe it was just a job. Everyone has something they're good at but aren't passionate about; he wouldn't have been surprised if doing research at the university had completely sucked the excitement out of tinkering with gears.

But it didn't, apparently, and Verso's mouth twitches, endeared despite himself.
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Yeah, of course.

[ Not that he knows where Gustave's tools are, or any of his things. He doesn't even know where Gustave's room is. One of the guest suites, he assumes. If he had to guess, Maman and Papa probably put him up in the small one, just in case some important person from the Painters' Council needed to stay over. ]

I'll pay you for the work, obviously. 50 Francs?

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